FIVE DAY COUNTDOWN TO 2018: A letter to my younger self

Dear 16 year old me,

You have a solid plan for your life right now don't you? Go to sixth form, then go to a college in London to study fashion, and become a stylist. Well I'm sorry to break it to you but that plan gets thrown out the window the minute you decide to leave sixth form after one year to work. Granted you still had a plan, you were going to work for one year and then start an online fashion stylist course. And you did. But you quit the course one month in and worked in the same hell-hole shop for just over two years. But don't read this letter and change history, because by leaving school and working in that shop, you met some of the best people in your life. You will hate every day you spend in the shop, but it is all worth it to find your two best friends. But do yourself a favour and quit in September before things get messy with your stuck-up arrogant bosses. And make sure you start applying for jobs months in advance, don't just apply for a couple and say you have 'applied for everything'.

I hope you get a job straight away because the first few months of 2017 were not very fun for me being unemployed. But make sure that you still start Safe Haven; Anonymous Letters, because it is the only thing that I am proud of. You will certainly have a lot to write about. February/March 2016 will change your mind and attitude and not for the better. It caused me a lot of pain, but I also believe that things happen for a reason so I'm just going to let that play out for you.

The second half of 2017 has been very difficult for me. I got a job and I moved in with Josh (that's one of those incredible best friends you'll meet), everything was looking up until I had an accident. My mental health spiraled and now I wake up every day wishing I was dead. If you have a job that isn't a housekeeper in a hotel, then that's great, move in with Josh and live your life. But if you do find yourself getting a job as a housekeeper in a hotel, then DO NOT take it, and don't move in with Josh. That way you will hopefully avoid the accident and your awful mental health, and you can focus on looking for a job that will provide a good future for you. And if you end up exactly where I am right now, then remember how much you want to live for our dad, hold on to that.

Now lets talk boys! That boy you're pining over right now? He's a dick. Remove him from your life. You'll be better off, trust me. And that goes for the barman in 2016 too. You need to ignore him entirely, because you end up having a great friendship with his girlfriend. Now, you'll meet a man at the markets in 2014, he works at the Meats of the World stall. You'll also see him in 2015 and 2016. The two of you will flirt each time, and then you just walk away. Please please grow some balls and ask him for his number.

Remember that life doesn't always go the way you want it to, but that doesn't mean it isn't meant to be.

Good luck.

-20 Year old you.

Tomorrow's post;

FIVE DAY COUNTDOWN TO 2018: A letter to my future self

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