TUESDAY TALK | new tattoo, happy ramblings and Netflix series'

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LIFE UPDATE
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Each week I tell myself that I'll write down, as they happen, anything that's interesting enough to post so that when I come to write 'Tuesday Talk' I'm not looking at a blinking cursor for 20 minutes trying to remember what's happened this week. And here I am, no notes. Staring at a blinking cursor. Pulling a serious thinking face. 


~ 1 cuppa and 3 chocolate bars later ~


I mentioned in a previous post that I was booked in for a tattoo last Thursday. I got it and I am so in love with it. This is my seventh tattoo, and it is the third time I have been tattooed by Paul from the original Dr Feelgood (bold street, on top of the sweet shop). Paul is brilliant, I always know that my tattoos will look beautifully perfect when he does them.

"My motto is: I'm alive,
so that means I can do anything."
- Venus Williams

When I was younger, my favourite phrase was "I can't". I quit so many things because I "couldn't" do it. No matter how many times my Nan told me "There's no such thing as can't", I still thought that if I couldn't do it the first time - I'll never be able to. So I just kept quitting. And I continued life with that same mindset. I feel like society doesn't want us to believe we can do anything we put our minds to. It's drummed into us from a young age that - girls can't like blue, boys can't like pink. Girls can't be footballers, boys can't be hairdressers. A man can't marry a man, and a woman can't marry a woman. We can't chase dreams because they're just that; dreams. You can't find your own happiness because you have to be safe and stable. We're made to believe that we can't. But we can.

"My body is my journal and
my tattoos are my story."
- Johnny Depp

I didn't just get my tattoo placed on my wrist so that I can see it every day, it's there because every time I have a panic attack I place my fingers on my left wrist, and I breathe with each count of my pulse. I'm alive, and I know that I can make it through any panic attack. That I can like blue. I can love and marry a man or a woman. I can chase my dreams, because I will reach them. I can be happy, because I deserve to be. I can do anything that I want to do and be anyone that I want to be. Because I answer to myself only. It's my goddamn life; I control what happens in it. I can, so can you.

At the start of this post I had no idea what I was going to write. And then it just poured out of me. I honestly don't think I can begin to explain to you how I feel. I am so happy. Beyond happy actually. I didn't realise until recently that I'd never been truly happy in my life. I feel like I can breathe for the first time ever. 

Imagine being surrounded by everyone you love. And you're playing with loads of puppies and kittens. You're eating pizza. Then you check your bank balance and it reads '£100,000,000'. Then you look up to the sky and you see a beautiful, bold rainbow. Then a unicorn walks up to you...

...That's how happy I feel. I can only imagine how happier I will be when I am free of anxiety.

I actually think I'm driving my dad and uncle crazy because of how happy and positive I am. Although I can see why they think I'm crazy, I've been singing at the top of my lungs, smiling non stop, skipping round the house, dancing around with my ear phones in. I mean it's who I was before, and then turned up to 100. 

Because I've been feeling so inspired lately, I have tons of posts planned and a lot of other ideas in the works that I'm pretty damn excited about. So keep your eye out for them. Do you want to see a post showing you all of my tattoos and the meaning behind them? Let me know in the comments section down below. If you mention me in any blog-link posts, I'll RT them for you. My handle is @SH_anonletters 
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WEEKLY LOVES
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Black Lightning

Jefferson Pierce, who retired from his superhero persona Black Lightning nine years ago after seeing the effects it it had on his family, is forced to become a vigilante again when the rise of the local gang called the 100 leads to increased crime and corruption in his community of Freeland.

I have been watching Black Lightning weekly since it started I absolutely love it. The pilot is easily one of the best pilots I have ever seen. It gave a really great insight into who the characters are and what effect they have on the community. It gave us a slight backstory in to why Jefferson Pierce had retired from his superhero duties 9 years ago. The pilot delivered everything a pilot needs and more. 10 minutes into it, I knew I'd love the show. Each episode builds and gets even better. There's twists and turns that will leave you with questions. I highly recommend.

Van Helsing

Van Helsing is set in the near future, where vampires have risen and taken control. Vanessa Van Helsing, a descendant of Abraham Van Helsing, awakens from a three-year coma after her supposed death to find herself in a post-apocalyptic world. She is humanity's last hope, as her unique blood composition gives her the ability to turn vampires human. With this secret weapon, Vanessa becomes a prime target for the vampires. She has been protected by a Marine ordered to keep her, and the doctor who saved her, safe, so she can lead a resistance against the vampires that plague the world's survivors. 

I'm currently half way through season 1, and I was pleasantly surprised at how much I love this show. It's thrilling, mysterious, action-filled and gory. As each episode goes by you'll find yourself changing who you trust and who you don't. I pretty much only trust 3 people at the moment. Each episode leaves you with new questions. It's building up to what, I imagine, will be a mind-blowing season finale. I hope so anyway. I'd definitely recommend giving this a watch. It's incredible to see another female lead taking on a "man's role".

All my love

xx

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